Tuesday, April 01, 2008

feeling small right now. it's weird how this happens because it always coincides with times when i feel too big physically, as if the state of my muscles being soft is directly connected to my mind growing slight and boring.

i could use a vacation involving trees and a canoe.

Wednesday, February 06, 2008

My hands smell like roses. Really.

This morning we went to the Santa Monica farmer's market, as we do every Wednesday morning. If there are good looking flowers there (and many weeks, annoyingly, there aren't) I usually will buy some for the apartment. Today I got a big bundle of very pale pink spray roses that smell delicious. The flower lady wrapped them in brown kraft paper. Then we stopped by the newsstand after we finished buying all our vegetables, which is another part of the weekly ritual (and not G.'s favorite part - in fact, his LEAST favorite part). And lo, there were three shiny, glossy new magazines for me to buy.

So off we went back to the car with me carrying pretty pink magazines in one hand (the new Vanity Fair cover is gorgeous) and pretty pink roses in the other. G. looked at me and said "And now we get to go get a fountain Diet Coke from McDonalds!" And that was when I exploded with happiness all over the sidewalk.

Sunday, February 03, 2008

In thinking more and more about hopefully having a baby in the not too distant future, I realize that I have an underlying fear of never again feeling girlish after I become a mother. On one hand, there is nothing I want to do more. But on the other hand (Hmmm... which hand is it that holds all the bad stuff? And shouldn't the phrase "heavy handed" be about that hand?), I am terrified of it immediately rendering me old and marmish (probably not a word, but so what).

I find myself literally having dreams about high school (which were generally nightmarish years) and I think those are based in some desire to feel like I'm not so far from that place. But - sheesh - I *am* so far from that place.

Tuesday, January 15, 2008


Wow. It's been nearly a year since my last post. In that time, I've only felt pulled towards a post once or twice, and never got around to it. But I've been missing it lately and am just now starting to feel like I might have stuff to write about again.

We'll see.

Sunday, February 04, 2007

Is anybody out there?

I haven't posted in so long that I wouldn't blame my handful of readers if they don't stop by anymore, but just in case, I wanted to make a note that I'm posting more often these days over on the new studio blog for my company.

See it here.

(Site address updated on February 15th!)

Friday, November 10, 2006

Monday, October 23, 2006

On To The Next


So that was my honeymoon. Not too shabby, huh?

Some big changes around here the last few weeks -- Things I thought would give me much more time to blog, but this is my first chance. I've been busy working on editing photos and baking with this pretty machine.

At the end of last month, I left my office job to devote myself full time to our photography business. I don't have words, truly, for what a big deal this has been for me. I told G. the other night that being able to work from home doing something I love feels the same way to me that I felt when we first started dating -- like I was finally where I was supposed to be.

Naturally, there's a somewhat scary downside to this developement in that it puts considerable financial strain on G. and I. But it's so, so worth it (so far). It's already improved my life, and it hasn't even been a month. I hope we can pull it off.